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我那懵懂的性意识
小学初中对性是空白,只想着好好学习,天天向上,真正接触异性,有点暧昧是从踏入高中开始的。
高-一时,和一女同学挤公交去上学,现在想想感觉那时女孩子发育没现在的好,但乳房也已经成形了,无意间手臂触到她的乳房,感觉像触电了一样,滑滑嫩嫩的,开始时是无意的,后来她也没有动,也没有反对,就胆大起来,故意用了点力,但也不敢有进一步的行动,就那么触着,第一次真正接触到异性敏感部位,现在想想那种感觉还很是难忘,现在还记着她的名字。
高-二分科,我上的是文科,班里很多人都在谈恋爱,把学业都荒废了,我当时牢记着父母的教诲,一心学习,从不谈恋爱,由于学习很好,是学习委员,成了班里女生关注的重点,收到很多纸条,其中有一个女生很大胆,真接约我周末晚上到她租房子的地方去,当时这个纸条我看了心很是跳,最终还是直接撕了,现在想想很后悔,她说周末只她一个人。现在还在想,当时如果去了,会怎么样呢?
高-三一心复习,晚上睡的很晚,有一次在我们宿舍旁边一个小厕所,听到那边两个女生在谈话,当时由于时间太晚,只我一个人,不知哪来的色胆,我就攀着墙去看了,借着厕所昏黄的灯光,看到是我们班的两个女生,其中一个和我坐前后位,看到她们俩雪白的臀部,她们俩也应该看到我了,不过,都转过脸去,我看了几眼赶紧下来,心跳那个快啊。害怕极了,害怕她们会喊,害怕她们告诉老师,不过,她们没有,过了好几天心才平静下来,后来我们见面都显得很是不好意思,再后来我见到她们俩就会想她们的身体,跟前后位的那个女性讲题时,更会心猿意马。
大学里没算谈恋爱,当然也想过要谈,不过,总想着成就一番事业,心思就在读书学习上了,有个女孩子倒是天天粘着我,他们都说是我女朋友,其实算不上,只是在一起的时间多些,多是一起借书,一起学习,唯一一次去过公园玩,还是她请的客;唯一看过一次电影,还是她请的客。后来她让我租房子,说她可以给我做饭,她会做鱼,无奈当时真的很穷,实在是不想浪费钱,就这样迷迷糊糊的过去了。到快毕业时,才开始春心萌动,一次准备考试前的一个晚自习,我们下楼很晚,突然熄灯了,才亲了她脸一下,毕业送她时,才跟她握了一下手。如此而已。现在失去联系已经多年了。不知她过得怎么样了..............
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